It was just a harmless nightmare with some murderers and so on..

Last night i saw a nightmare and woke up in the middle of the night. This happens to me quite often. I am seeing a nightmare and try to wake myself up or yell for help and only strange mumbling is coming out of my mouth. It is really scary feeling and when i am finally fully awake i am still very scared to close my eyes again. E wasn`t at home, so no one was here to wake me up in the middle of the nightmare. (And also we are not sharing the bed anymore so there is a chance she wouldn`t have heard me anyway!)

Because of horror of the night time i had to have a good relaxing morning without rush.

So, I lighted some candles and had a coffee and a peaceful breakfast just by myself. I should do things and spend more time going different places, but right now i choose boring lifestyle (and even enjoy working!!!)without alcohol and too much partying. I am waiting to have some kind of idea about the topic of my Master`s thesis..but, still nothing!How much more do i have to wait or should i start to work for it?!? I had a busy Autumn with lots of partying and getting to know new people. Maybe now is time to relax and just to be. Maybe i don`t have much to write about in my blog anymore. Or maybe i will just write about little moments of happiness..

I also have a nice new habit to spend time with couples! To spend time with my flatmate E and her Boy. And to spend time with my best friend Naane and her becoming husband J. Nice habit, isn`t it?

Andiboi will come here in a month. I am so much looking forward for it.

You are my magician!

I should take pictures and put them here to make my blog a bit more interesting. But at the moment i don`t feel like using my camera at all. But i will, yes i will. It is a promise.

My trip back to Budapest was of course incredible time. Now im again back in Finland and working the weeks away from Jyväskylä and always coming back here for weekends. It is good, cos it makes me busy and days go faster. (and i know i shouldn`t say so) And i have to add i might just be the happiest girl in the world at the moment but still so sad and missing and missing.

I am feeling a bit sick since yesterday, so this next song is quite comfortable right now. I was listening to Yona in Poppari yesterday with my lovely friends.




"you fill me with the potions of love.."

I never count but it is just 4 nights to go! jejeje!

A lot has happened lately. For example we moved to a new flat with E. This flat is located in Finland for a chance. I guess i need to stay here for some time now. A good thing is that our new home couldnt be more cosy! It feels like waking up in grandparents place every morning which in this case is considered as a nice thing. We are at the moment in a process to get to know our neighbors better. Most of them seem to think we are too noisy. But we are just happy and laughing a lot usually.

Also it is great to spend time with my friends. It is snowy in Finland these days and my marathon training is a bit of a challenge cos i don`t like running in a snowy weather. (gonna go to run Stockholm marathon in the beginning of June)

And what is the greatest thing of all is that i ended up booking flights to Budapest on next Tuesday. Just 4 nights to go. Couldn`t stay away more than 3 weeks. That`s it. Can`t wait to get there and see Andiboi! :)

What i wish for this year is a world peace and an ability to fly wherever i want in two seconds..

I promise to be a better person. I promise to loose weight at least 5 kilos and look more beautiful and have a flat stomach. I wont over eat and i will do yoga at least 4 times a week always in the morning at six. I will drink power healthy smoothie every morning and drink green tea. I promise to change my ways and never hate anyone. I will become a perfect cook and cook wonderful dinners at least 4 times a week. I promise to take my studies seriously. I will always be proud of myself and live the way it is possible - always. I will find inner peace or at least i will find God. etc. etc.

And if i done all of this i would become someone else than who i actually am..

But seriously, i won`t make any stupid promises this year which i cant keep. I am looking forward for this year`s adventures and everything it will bring. I will be as happy as i can. I think i will love more than ever before.




p.s i have found my new look-alike and a new role model Pippi Långstrump.