Christmas sadness is here to stay again. I always have it. Every fucking year. Last year it used to be just a bit different..I seriously think i was one of the most happiest girls in the world last year this time. Well. This is all gone now. It has been gone for about half a year.
It is dark outside. It is rainy and grey. There is no snow. Where the hell are you, snowflakes?!
I have the Christmas song plan which makes sure i won`t get tired of listening to them. Now i only listen to songs in english and then on December ill change my cd:s and it will be all about finnish songs. They will bring me the feeling of Christmas.
I should soon move to Tampere. I should make plans for my future. What happens after April? Where will i go?
Can i take my guitar and travel around Europe for some time? No? How will i get money to survive? How, why, when, where etc. Maybe ill go to London or maybe ill go to Germany after all. Or maybe ill leave Europe behind and go find something completely new. Or maybe i will go to take a shower and then walk to Uni library to write my Masters thesis. This is the biggest maybe!
Baby
